Where to be?

I cannot understand myself. I hate being here, but when I was in Veracruz, I really wanted to be here, now, I'm here and I want to gho back there, but I also want to go to Lindavista where my brother is, but I know I'm going to be bored there. The University represents another alternative, but I know I'm going to hate it soon. So, where to be...?